Argh -venting-
Not such a good day. I had a horrible phone conversation and feeling low. I don’t know what is wrong with my dad these days, but he’s been getting into the habit of telling people things they have no business knowing –about me, and my sisters and their families. He’s always been a good friend and there’s a lot of years of deep trust in our relationship, but in the last few months he’s gotten loose lips about family business and it can be quite humiliating. This last incident I found out about today really made me want to crawl under a rock and die of embaressment. I’m still considering that course of action, btw, so if I’m not on buddyslim you know what happened ;P
Apparently I can’t trust him with -anything- anymore. I’ve talked to him about this, and so have my sisters, but I guess he doesn’t see what he’s doing wrong, because he keeps on doing it!
Was ok before that phone call, but I’m so completely low I’m thinking there must be pms lurking somewhere. Don’t know for sure, maybe its just a bad day. I don’t crave food, in fact I had quite a subdued appetite all day.
So on plan for eating, but not for exercise. I did do a bunch of cleaning today but its just not the same. Some days, it seems a year, or two or three of being on plan is nothing at all, and other days it seems like an eternity. Just to see some results, that is. I know I can’t ever go back to how I was eating, and I don’t think I’d even want to.
PS spellchecker doesn’t seem to work D:
*hugs*
Well, of course you’re feeling low, regardless of PMS. No one wants to be talked about, especially if what was said was humiliating. So, what’s done is done and people know the “story”. But, now learn from it. Your Dad obviously doesn’t get it and he might be telling people things because he could be lonely. Not saying it’s so, but it could be. So now don’t tell him anything too personal. And don’t tell any brother or sister anything personal if you know they tell your Dad everything either. Start being selective on who knows what about you. I hope you feel better about the situation and I hope none of this affects your goals. Try and stay upbeat.
I know exactly how you feel. My mum does the exact same thing. Growing up she was always telling everyone about my weight problems and humiliating me in public. I just had to learn to keep things from her. It annoys her immensely, but I know that anything I tell her will be heard by half of town so I’m very selective in what I say.If you have issues you are sensitive about you have to protect yourself, even from people you should be able to trust. Be strong and take care of yourself.
It’s really hard to deal with family memebers who seem to think that it’s funny to share private details of our lives but try to let it go over your head. Whats done is done and al he’s achieved is to distance himself from you, he wont have anymore gossip about you if you don’t trust him enough to confide in him anymore. Keep your chin up.
Sorry to hear that you have been having a rotten day. Stick with your eating plan and even though you don’t feel it the same as exercising, that housework is still wonderful activity to burn calories. Make the commitment to exercise tomorrow. It’s okay to have a bad day. I think that my mother still views me as her little girl and as she gets older she grows more sinical. She hurts me sometimes with the things that she says without intention. She feels badly afterwards but will still say ‘But it’s the truth’. That gets on my nerves! Anyway, hang in there, you’re worth it!
I agree with Wonder Woman. Try to look at this as a learning lesson, that you can no longer talk to your dad about things you don’t want anyone else to know. Try not to be too down.